I feel slutty, guy tells me "I crave penis"

I'm 18 (female) and i've never had sexual intercourse. I've kissed 4 guys so my number is pretty low, a lot of people are surprised that i'm a virgin but i don't feel the need to hook up with people that are random. Anyway, recently when i turned 18 i decided to give oral sex to a friend i had always found attractive and had already kissed, it was really bad and we didn't talk ever after that. No one really knows about it. Afterwards, i was going through a pretty tough time and i had a friend that always wanted to hook up with me but i said it would never happen because i never found him attractive. Sooner and later, i went over to this house and while we were cuddling, i got extremely horny and just went for it. I just gave him hand but we were going to be interrupted by his parents so i went home. Afterwards we were "seeing eachother" he told me he liked me. This is were it gets complicated, i constantly wanted to hook up. I would give him oral sex 3 times when i saw him and i asked him to give it back to me, he never asked me for it. I begged for it. I wanted to give it to him and i wanted it back. One time when i went over, i asked if he was up for anything and he said no. I felt restless and annoyed and begged him. So pathetic. I get so sexually frustrated and can't think without doing anything. He loved it when i gave it to him considering he would come in under a few minutes every single time and i loved getting it also but he would tell me his penis needed a rest because i would constantly give it to him. I asked him if he wanted to have sex with me and he said he felt intimidated, i told him i was a virgin and he was really surprised. I only seen him for about 3 weeks (seen him 6 times and im pretty sure i gave him oral sex 16 times) i would never get bored of it. I used to masturbate everyday and watch porn but this was better. Anyway, we stopped being friends for a bit, he told me it wasn't the relationship he wanted (he thought i was using him), i didn't really care. I was upset because we couldn't hook up and i got extremely sexually frustrated again. I went to his house 3 weeks after and he didn't expect anything but we gave each other oral sex again and i made the first move. It didn't mean anything, we didn't like each other and i'm really upset that i gave in to it especially because he told someone he used to be with that "his never met a woman that craved penis so much and his dick couldn't handle it" It's been 2 weeks now and feel so disgusted and slutty. I didn't have sex with him and i haven't talked to him since and i don't plan to, don't know what i was thinking honestly. The difference between him and the other guy was that this guy talks a lot, i know he liked me but i think he will talk about it. I'm upset that i went to hook up with him when we didn't like each other anymore. And i 'm upset that he thinks "I crave dick" I feel slutty and full of so much regret. What do you consider slutty? And is it weird that i want to do so much sexual stuff? I think it's perfectly normal.

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