My wife won't let me go, what should I do?

G'day, On my previous thread I asked for advice regarding getting over infidelity. I took the advice of the people that advised me, the consensus was to move on. My best buddy recommends the same thing (he knows me best) but my Mum thinks I should stay. I have been separated now for 6-8 months and I have tried to reconcile. Please see the previous threads for more information (if you have the time that is - any advise really appreciated). So I told my wife that there is no other way but divorce but I still want to be part of her life and help her, she said marriage or nothing. I am way too frightened to move back into the house after what happened last time, it was almost it for me back there - what am I supposed to do? So my wife just started crying on the phone - I had NEVER heard her cry in the whole relationship. I reminded her that I was the one in tears on the kitchen floor about 4 times begging her not to ask me to go when she did in the past. When I did go she does it! Anyway it broke my heart and I couldn't stand it, I couldn't stand to hear her so upset and in mental pain. She was a freaking mess I have never heard her like this before. I could not bear it so I said that we will continue to work on things then on SMS after the call. It was killing me, she immediately started sending me texts how she loves me and how she misses the small things I do like crinkle my nose, the jokes I tell, how I make her laugh and make her feel safe. I felt so bad. I don't know what to freaking do. I just am not ready to move back in after what happened last time. I can't face it, it was 3 months of mental health hell with her being distant and wanting me out. Man for my own self preservation I cannot move back in to that house because of the memories. Can someone please help me. I have been taking the advise here on the forum and I need some more, has anyone been through anything like this before? Maybe she realized she does love me after I left but that doesn't change the fact that the marriage may not work out, if we fall back into old habits it definitely won't. I have NEVER had a woman try this hard to get me back EVER. I have never had a woman apparently love me this much, this is so painful. I don't know what to do.

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