Am I delusional?

Last year I fell incredibly hard for this guy. It took me by surprise especially because I was so heart broken by another guy. Anyway, this guy was everything, like he would make my heart beat fast, make me smile, happy, fulfilled and the sexual tension was incredible. It was strong because it was forbidden. He is Muslim, me Christian. He never once told me he likes me, yet he was wanted me to love and speak highly of him like I do my father. But he was ashamed of me. I got that impression from one time when we was arguing and he insisted we go for a walk yet didn't want anyone to see us. I converted to Islam, not entirely because of him. But he would allow me to touch him, he would come over to spend time, buy me things. My counsellor said it was another way for him to get a convert to Islam. :-( but a part of me feels like it was much more because I still long for him. I miss him. I genuinely think I might have loved this guy. But am I being delusional? Posted from TSR Mobile

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