Depressed and losing my husband

Hello, I have been married a bit over three years. In the past 1-2 years, I was feeling depressed and it was getting worse and worse. I knew I had to dig myself out of this black hole but I couldn't. I guess that is why depression sticks around. I was sad all the time, not engaging in activities, taking it out on my husband. He must have felt like living in hell. One day, he talked to me that I needed to get help. He said he is suffering and depressed because of me. He cannot see us together for long because I am not happy. He also told me that I cannot meet his high sex drive and make him sexually happy, which is very important to him. It hit me very hard. I knew that I was in this dark hole that was affecting him and us. But him telling me all this was shocking and I realized how serious it was. My brain was blank. I couldn't think. It has taken so much courage for him to address his issues in marriage with me since he does not like addressing problems. I was grateful he had decided to tell me before just walking out. All the things I thought I was depressed or worried about (I have anxiety issues) didn't even worth thinking about since the "talk". You realize how you were wasting time worrying about things that may or may not happen or things that are not important to enjoy your life. I realize I already had what I wanted in life, and now I am stupid to lose this beautiful person from my life. I see all the wonderful things about my husband. I remember how I felt when we were dating. He is smart, caring, genuine, nice, funny, and cute. He was so positive and he knew who he was. It was worth moving half around the world for him. I have a great respect and attraction to this guy. He is my love and I love him so much. But along the way, I screwed up. I didn't treat him the way he deserved. I lost my focus to other meaningless material things in life. I took him for granted. I hurt him and drained him by not paying attention to him or listening to his needs. I was very selfish. Since then, I started seeing a therapist and trying to work on my depression and anxiety issues. I am engaging in activities. I went to see gynecologist about my low sex drive. I am planning to see a sex therapist. I am excited about exploring sexual activities with him (if he feels the same way) I love him so very much. I want to be with him no doubt. But at the same time, I will let him go because I see how much he suffered and he may not have the same feelings he had for me as I still do for him. Any advice on what I should do? I am scared to death. If it is not too late, I will do anything.

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