I have never posted a thread like this before but I desperately need feedback. I am 40 years old and have been with my husband since high school. We got pregnant our senior year. Obviously too young. My husband was childish, selfish, emotionally abusive, borderline physically abusive (he never actually hit), extremely jealous and possessive and an alcoholic for all our lives together up until about 4 years ago when I got the nerve to ask for a divorce. I stayed because he agreed to go to therapy. And he has gotten much better. He has cut back on drinking but won't give it up completely. He is never abusive anymore and is trying to work on his jealousy and possessiveness. He is like a different person in so many ways. BUT I still want to leave. I feel horrible because I know he is trying so hard. I just feel dead inside. I care about him, I don't want to hurt him. But I can't get over the past. I can't trust him even though I do know deep do wn he has changed. Do I stay, or move on with my life and let him do the same? He knows I'm unhappy and it's killing him because he's trying so hard and it's not enough. So now after all the years of hell he put me through I feel like the bad guy....and that just makes me mad.
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