Ok first off, I know I will seem like a loser for having this relationship in the first place....but hear me out.
I was involved with a guy I met on holidays to sharm el sheikh, Egypt. I know what you are thinking....but he was not sleazy like the others, he felt familiar, he had many British friends. He was 'different'. He was my friend, and at first I didn't want anymore than this, but he pursued me in a sense. And once I let down that barrier, I fell in love with him.
I would go and see him every few months. But, I had trust issues and have them with all men. It all stems from the fact my dad had a 3 year affair with a Russian woman and it tore my family apart. My guy worked in the club scene, and went to clubs every night. I sometimes worried that maybe something would happen.
In June, another guy there told me he saw my guy kissing a girl. I asked him about it, and he promptly broke up with me. He said it 'killed him' that I didn't trust him.
The next 2 months, I almost got over him. I saw the downsides to the whole thing, and was moving on. Then, a month ago he started talking to me, just in a friendly way. Then he told me he had problems. He was living in his car, and had no money. I felt sorry for him. Then, he asked me for money. At first I dismissed this. But then one day he said, 'I will leave sharm el sheikh tonight and go home (to his village), and I will never return, sharm was my chance to get out of the Egyptian culture and maybe see the world, but the dream is over now.' I felt so sad for him now, and in my mind I thought, if he leaves sharm....I will never see him again. So I gave him the money to keep him in sharm el sheikh.
He then started saying that he loved me again, and I stupidly became hooked (again). We planned that I would go there and live with him in December.
The re-kindling of our relationship lasted until 2 days ago. He told me....that he can't do it anymore, and that he slept with a Russian girl last week. He said 'let's just be friends then talk about things when you come in december'. So basically....he wants to sleep around for 2 months.
Tbh, I get that maybe he didn't want a long distance girlfriend anymore. But what is tearing me apart now is that he proved me right- I couldn't trust him, as he did cheat on me, he did it before he broke up with me so yes, he cheated. It was also with a Russian girl, to add insult to injury (as my dad also did this). AND he also cheated on me after I gave him money to STAY in sharm el sheikh, the place with the 'freedoms' (freedoms to get with girls more like :rolleyes:)
And don't even get me started on the cheek of it, believing I would go and live there after this.
Go ahead, say I'm a fool. I just wanted to share my story and talk about it with someone, because it's driving me crazy thinking about it right now.
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