Since I was dumped I've been masturbating semi-obsessively instead of doing work. Not all day nor is it a problem every day but some days especially when I'm on the computer too much (which I've become addicted to) I struggle to stop, even when it's limp and I can't get hard anymore. I'm not trolling but I'd rather stay anon thanks.
Masturbation and the computer are some of my primary reward mechanisms and coping mechanisms in general, but they often-especially the masturbating/porn-enable me to procrastinate, get to work/lectures/outings late, stay up late and be tired in the morning (becoming more dependent on the computer) etc. It's a vicious cycle. Basically leave me home alone long enough, I will end up on porn. I'm still in bed now, it's embarrassing.
I'm also worried that this is changing my views on women for the worse, making me insecure in my body, and making my social anxiety harder to overcome.
I tried NoFap with NoPorn for Lent, and failed about Day 14.
I have anxiety, is it possible that this addictive compulsion is related to it and avoiding work/my fears?
Put the internet to work for you.
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