I'm in a mess, and I'm really looking for some advice.
So, Wednesday night me and my partner of 5 years had an argument. She went to her friends and I said I'm leaving. Was a spur of the moment anger thing. I wanted her to walk back and sort the problem out, but she left for a few hours to get space.
I actually called my mom and asked if she can get my uncle to come and pick up my stuff. I packed my valuables, my uncle came with the van and I left. My girlfriend came down to sort it out, and I was gone.
I woke up the next morning and thought "WTF have I just done!". My girlfriend sent me a message saying she was so hurt by what I did. Anyway, I explained my feelings to her, and how what I did was totally out of order. We agreed I stay at my moms until Saturday and think about my problems.
Throughout all this my mom didn't know I was talking to her. My mom dislikes her, and said I am better off without her. She told all my family that me and my girlfriend are over for good, and everyone was telling me that I done the right thing.
I couldn't bare to tell her that I was going back home Sunday. I didn't know what to do. So Sunday morning at 6am before everyone was awake I got up and grabbed a taxi back home. I left everything in my moms attic, and just took my laptop.
I messaged my brother and said "Tell mom I love her so much and I am sorry if my actions hurt her. I am too scared to face her. Please tell her I'm sorry and I love her".
And since then I've not been on Facebook. She's sent me a message, but I can't bare to open it. I feel like I've betrayed her hospitality and kindness. She's such a good mom and is always there for me, but I know how she feels about my girlfriend. So it makes it hard for me to say anything to her.
Now she's likely sitting there thinking "What have I done wrong to him" or thinking "He's took the piss!".
Now I don't know what to do. I am upset that I can't talk to her and explain to her. I'm upset that I feel like I'm being forced to ignore her. She's been there for me through a lot of hard times.
Please, I need some advice.
So, Wednesday night me and my partner of 5 years had an argument. She went to her friends and I said I'm leaving. Was a spur of the moment anger thing. I wanted her to walk back and sort the problem out, but she left for a few hours to get space.
I actually called my mom and asked if she can get my uncle to come and pick up my stuff. I packed my valuables, my uncle came with the van and I left. My girlfriend came down to sort it out, and I was gone.
I woke up the next morning and thought "WTF have I just done!". My girlfriend sent me a message saying she was so hurt by what I did. Anyway, I explained my feelings to her, and how what I did was totally out of order. We agreed I stay at my moms until Saturday and think about my problems.
Throughout all this my mom didn't know I was talking to her. My mom dislikes her, and said I am better off without her. She told all my family that me and my girlfriend are over for good, and everyone was telling me that I done the right thing.
I couldn't bare to tell her that I was going back home Sunday. I didn't know what to do. So Sunday morning at 6am before everyone was awake I got up and grabbed a taxi back home. I left everything in my moms attic, and just took my laptop.
I messaged my brother and said "Tell mom I love her so much and I am sorry if my actions hurt her. I am too scared to face her. Please tell her I'm sorry and I love her".
And since then I've not been on Facebook. She's sent me a message, but I can't bare to open it. I feel like I've betrayed her hospitality and kindness. She's such a good mom and is always there for me, but I know how she feels about my girlfriend. So it makes it hard for me to say anything to her.
Now she's likely sitting there thinking "What have I done wrong to him" or thinking "He's took the piss!".
Now I don't know what to do. I am upset that I can't talk to her and explain to her. I'm upset that I feel like I'm being forced to ignore her. She's been there for me through a lot of hard times.
Please, I need some advice.
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