Hello all, I have posted before about my whole situation and I now realize that it may be healthier to just write on here when I need to talk rather than constantly reaching out to her. We spoke over the weekend and typed up our own seperation agreement which has her moving out over spring break. We agreed that we would keep all finances the same so as to be able to keep house etc. We worked out custody that I will have them Sun, Mon, Tues nights- Wed and thurs nights are hers and we rotate weekends. I feel better that things are in writing. But I do get weak when I am around her at night, I still feel the need to put my arm around her etc. I fight it sometimes and other times do it realizing that it isnt fixing things, its just nice to do while I can. She had IC this past friday and I checked her FB after she left and saw a message to POSOM saying" I miss you" This burned me up and I had to be talked off the ledge by a buddie who just told me be cool , keep it for ammo when needed. I tried to get her to own up to it, by asking has there been any contact but she wouldnt own up. Thats when it finally hit me and I could be distant. He has not returned any of her fb messages or texts so maybe she will realize she was just a piece of A for him and hes moved on. But thats her discovery to find out. Spent saturday helping her clean out rooms at her moms so t5he house is good to go for her to move in, kids helped they were just told we were helping grandma clean up. We will let them know about a week prior to the physical split. All this stuff going on and now it looks like my 14 year old dog wont last the week, just another great thing. Well I understand if no one wants to comment on my posts but I do appreciate being allowed to vent on here. She keeps saying it goes back and forth and for about two weeks it did to me as well, I told her sat that Im sorry but I now am pessimistic about us lasting past the seperation. Told her things could change but I have a hard time trusting her and I cant live with distrust.
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