This plays on my mind a lot as it's quite a big problem and I constantly overthink. I'm 24 and have never done anything at all with a boy. It's frustrating and affects me quite a bit. The little attention that I have received is from guys I have not been interested in in the slightest.
I'm ugly so I understand why I am in this problem, I'm also shy but that is partly to do with how I have barely ever had a guy look at me for all these years reinforcing the thought that I definitely am ugly.
As much as I want to be in a relationship, I also really don't want to be if that makes any sense at all. Like I see guys as completely different from girls and don't understand them. Anyone else feel this way?
I can't imagine a guy wanting to be near me or be with me as I can be hard to live with unfortunately and that gets to me too.
I also can't imagine working between two people on different thoughts, feelings and opinions. Like I can't imagine being incredibly comfortable around a guy although I'm not with my friends anyway.
This makes me aware that I am nowhere near ready to be in a relationship but I just feel like I am at least 5 years behind everyone else my own age both with personal growth, experiences, maturity. Am I the only one?
My friends talk to me about types of guys but I don't have a type. I can't imagine seeing one particular guy and wanting to get to know him extremely well etc. The whole idea is absolutely alien to me. I like guys on tv shows and that but my friends say that I become obsessed with that or like them because there's no actual attachment and that I'm scared and avoiding getting into the deep end and that I do it to avoid getting hurt.
Does anyone actually get what I'm saying or felt similar? I think about it quite a bit and it affects what little confidence I have and it doesn't matter what guy I am constantly uncomfortable and embarassed around them.
I'm ugly so I understand why I am in this problem, I'm also shy but that is partly to do with how I have barely ever had a guy look at me for all these years reinforcing the thought that I definitely am ugly.
As much as I want to be in a relationship, I also really don't want to be if that makes any sense at all. Like I see guys as completely different from girls and don't understand them. Anyone else feel this way?
I can't imagine a guy wanting to be near me or be with me as I can be hard to live with unfortunately and that gets to me too.
I also can't imagine working between two people on different thoughts, feelings and opinions. Like I can't imagine being incredibly comfortable around a guy although I'm not with my friends anyway.
This makes me aware that I am nowhere near ready to be in a relationship but I just feel like I am at least 5 years behind everyone else my own age both with personal growth, experiences, maturity. Am I the only one?
My friends talk to me about types of guys but I don't have a type. I can't imagine seeing one particular guy and wanting to get to know him extremely well etc. The whole idea is absolutely alien to me. I like guys on tv shows and that but my friends say that I become obsessed with that or like them because there's no actual attachment and that I'm scared and avoiding getting into the deep end and that I do it to avoid getting hurt.
Does anyone actually get what I'm saying or felt similar? I think about it quite a bit and it affects what little confidence I have and it doesn't matter what guy I am constantly uncomfortable and embarassed around them.
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