So I'm completely screwed up. I know this is all ludicrous. However, I can't help the way I feel. here goes. I'm pregnant. With my first. My husband however has a child from a previous "relationship"...meaning he was 20 and was with some horrible trashy girl "one time" and a child resulted in it. (Also, food for thought..til this day...child is almost 7...he not sure if she is really his) So that adds a fun little twist to things. Anyway, so I'm pregnant and having these sickening feelings. I have no desire to let my husband in the delivery room with me. Let alone have him at appointments. All I can think of is "well, he already did this"...so why bother with me. I' m sickened that I have to feel this way. I feel bad. I have not addressed this with him. I just smile and pretend to be happy. While in side I'm totally disgusted. So that's me.
On his side he has taken to avoiding his child. He will not speak to the child mother. At this point I believe it has been 3 months since he has done anything with the child. He has expressed to me that he really feels that the child is not his...that he has been living with it for years and been too afraid to do anything about it. I know I'm all over the place here...but this situation is nuts. I really don't want to deal with any of this anymore. I just want to have my own family and move forward. Someone just tell me what I should do.
On his side he has taken to avoiding his child. He will not speak to the child mother. At this point I believe it has been 3 months since he has done anything with the child. He has expressed to me that he really feels that the child is not his...that he has been living with it for years and been too afraid to do anything about it. I know I'm all over the place here...but this situation is nuts. I really don't want to deal with any of this anymore. I just want to have my own family and move forward. Someone just tell me what I should do.
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