i have no idea what is going on?!?

hello everyone. i am in a relationship that started about a year and a half ago. it is someone i met 12 yrs ago. i fell in love with her at first site. at the time she was in a relationship and so we really only hung out as friends. eventually she moved to another state as did i, we reconnected as friends and started expressing our love for one another. she was in a few relationships in the twelve year period as was i. she had a child, i had a child. we both went through changes. when we reconnected she had told me she was goin on a trip with her ex bf that she had promised to spend with his kids amd him and i was made aware of it. during her three day trip i heard nothing from her except 1 text message, it was a photo and sweet miss you text. at the time we did not live in the same part of the country and hadnt yet even seen each other in person in still 12 years. we were expected to meet up with each other a few weeks after this trip. as it turns out, unknown to me she ended up sleeping and having sex with the ex several times during the trip. she did not tell me, her ex did. without knowing this we reconnected and had an amazing time together. i went back home and she went back home and we continued to talk and text daily. i started travelling to her several times and eventually moved in with her and her son. things were up and down over the course of the summer but i asked her to marry me and she accepted. her friends decided it would be nice to have an engagement celebration for her and they all went out and got very intoxicated. meanwhile, i was waiting at home for her and she claimed she would be home by 12 midnight. i texted and texted and heard nothing. she showed up at 530 am drunk and apologizing for her being late. the next day she went to work and i stayed home. the next morning she was clamming up and acting strange, it turns out she had spent some time with another man kissing him and who knows what else. she tolde about it and i was obviously very upset. she once again went to work and i was trying to process this all. the next day, i asked her to tell me if this man texted her, she said yes he did and there were 4 texts on her phone that said nothing more than i cant resist, i just need to text you...that sort of thing. it turns out there were 192 texts she had deleted fr

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