Afraid of having sex....Help!

I'm afraid of being touched and absolutely mortified by the idea of having sex. I've had a couple of boyfriends and even though I really liked them I broke up with them as soon as I thought that the relationship has progressed enough for us to have sex. I've always though this was irrelevant but from ages 7 to 10,this guy made me perform oral sex on him and would kiss and touch me. I've always thought that this did not effect me in any way. I didn't know what was happening at the time and he never hurt me. He made it seem like a fun "adultish" game and I felt kind of proud that I was part of an "adult" thing. Like I was in a secret club or something. Lately I've been wondering whether it was because of this that I'm afraid of sex. I'm also generally really awkward in social situations. Any advice?

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