Husband watches rape and sleep porn! :(

Last year my husband raped me while I was asleep. I've been super cautious sleeping now around him. While looking through the browser history on our laptop trying to find an old page, I see that he has been looking up RAPE PORN! I don't understand this! Is it some weird fetish!? I don't know what to do! He's done in on more than one occasion based on his searches! He's also been looking up sleep sex porn. I love him but he hasn't been respecting me as a woman since we got married! I've had nearly monthly fights with him because he treats me like a sex toy and not as a woman or wife. We've been married for two years and together for over three. I'm 23, and he is 26. Its frustrating because I lost my virginity being raped at 14. I don't know what to do at this point. He refuses to go to therapy and lies to me constantly. I need some serious help with this. Should I leave him? Should I go see a therapist by myself? Should I try and embrace it despite my fears?

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