Married 48 years - last 15 yrs without sex

For me I know exactly what is going on within my mind, heart and soul as result of no physical contact and no sex with my wife of 48 yeas - no sex for 15 years + 6 months. It is a constant struggle and very discouraging because I don't see how there will ever be a recovery for us. Early in our marriage intimacy was great, we both shared the initiation but now, two people sharing house and bed, that's it. What I really don't know is what is going on in the mind and soul of my wife? Does she struggle at all? She told me about a years ago, "I don't need to have sex.' she later said she would enjoy it but it is not something she has to have. That tells me a lot because I know her well and her life before we were married. She enjoys a good time, to laugh, etc. And it shows when she is with others. But around me she seems down, depressed. I believe within heer she has a ball of sexual desire pinned up just waiting on it to be lit but not by me based on her comment she does not have to have sex. All I really would like to know is how is she really feeling not having intimate sexual intercourse with a man this long? What does she think about it or does she not think about it at all.

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