| I am new to this, so please bear with me as I fumble through the process... I have been in a faithful relationship for 17 1/2 years with my 15 year anniversary nearing. I love my husband. He is a good man. However, like so many others, that doesn't always tell it all. He is now nothing more than my friend. There is no spark. No attraction. No passion. No intimacy. I don't know if its me, him, or us. But I am tired of the current state of our union. He works out of town for long stretches of time 40 days gone, 5 days home, for 8 years now. Leaving me home to be both mom and dad. I work full time and own my own business and can be quite independent. Over these years, I feel like I have been widowed. Even some of my kids friends and their families assumed this since they had never seen my husband. And I am always alone. He has had the opportunity to have the same type job close to home that pays the same, where he could be home every night, but chooses not to. I am always the third wheel with our couples friends. Never having him by my side. I don't get to have those little experiences and shared moments that most couples get to share, let alone the big ones. In the past 10 years we have had sex exactly 9 times. Not once this calendar year. I feel like we never will again at this point. Does anyone else have to try to figure out how to make it work in situations such as this? Can it be done? Or is this all that is left for me? Has the neglect on gone too long? I am still in my 30s and don't want to continue to dry up inside. I have tried every angle that I could think of with him over the years and am now out of ideas. Desperately seeking wisdom... | |||
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