Husband is not allowing any contact with past

A few weeks back I wrote about a one night stand with an old boyfriend. I have been keeping an eye on my e-mails trying to catch my old boyfriends emails to me. The first time he got in touch with me it was through my mother. Since that horrible day after the fling my old boyfiend (I will call him N from now on) N has been trying to talk me into another time to get together and talk. I told N that that was a bad idea because I was trying to get my husbands forgiveness. My husband has suffered enough humiliation at my and his family's hands over the years. I woke up yesterday to someone knocking on the door so I thru on some clouths and answered the door. It was N asking me to go talk with him over lunch. At that point my husband appeared and said fat chance. N at that point said that my husband was keeping me prisoner. My husband had more than enough at that point and demanded N leave, I turned and told my husband that me and N had to have a chat in privat and my husband became very antagonistic. I left with N and he took me for a very nice lunch at a seafood resteraunt. I told him I was going home after the lunch and would not talk to him again. N said that he found me after two decades of looking and he was not going to give up that easy. He took me home and droped me off. I noticed the car had my husbands foot locker and duffle bag in the back seat. He informed me that was the last time he was going to watch as I went down the street with N, he was moving into the fifth wheel. I actualy begged him to stay saying that was the last time I would do somthing like that. My husband grabed his cane and left saying he did not beleive me. I called his mother and father and told them that I went to lunch with N and they said they would try and talk to my husband to allow me a little leway in this. His mother points out that I had allready let to many people destroy any type of pride my husband had in himself. His mother told me that he would probably spend a couple of days out there to cool off. Have I burned to many bridges with my husband? Can I figure out a way to bring him home? Am I a prisoner in my marriage? Can one mistake cause so much? I admit that my husband has given up so much to remain married and now he needs me to be a supportive wife, he now has to give up even that.

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