Hi All,
Been w hile since I last posted. Ive been struggling along. But as im getting older (41 in a few months) the more I want for not only myself but for my man. We are devoted to each other, but have never been sexually compatible. I blame myself mostly as I haven't been sexually honest with him (stupidly thinking in not wanting to hurt his feelings) but as you will all know, resentment has set in inside me. Ive never orgasmed with my husband (again I DO blame myself) but in the last few months I have changed that and been honest and open with him. As Ive stated I adore him and even though I have been honest both inside and outside the bedrooms in what I need he hasn't changed his approach in the bedroom. Im at a loss as where to go from here. I know I can orgasm as I masturbate everyday (at one stage in life I didn't think I could...didn't have my first orgasm till I was 23-24) but it seems my head just shutsdown as soon as we start having sex....he does the same thing, in the s ame spot, in the same positions. Ive asked for change and tried being very frank in letting him know what Id like to try...even suggested he read things...but he doesn't. Im not unattractive, I keep myself slim and fit and make sure we go out on date nights to have the alone time to keep us strong as a couple...I always dress up for him and keep myself tidy....but im wondering how much do I keep doing? I really want to have an orgasm WITH him...but nothings changing. He does premature ejaculate and always has and refuses to seek professional help...ive been very supportive and NEVER belittle him or make a big deal of it as I don't want him to feel worse. Resentment has set in I know and for ths I feel like crap...I am trying not to feel like this...but its getting louder. I refuse to walk away from our relationship because he is a wonderful man, a good Father and there is so much I adore about him...I want to explore a D/s side to our sexual relationship and have asked him a nd left not so subtle hints but again nothing. I run our lives(looks after three kids full time, run the household, pay all bills, repair broken things, maintain our acreage by myself) he works VERY hard also in a very demanding job...but as soon as he steps in the door he stops. Im ok with that...except in the bedroom...I need more. What do I do next???:confused:
Been w hile since I last posted. Ive been struggling along. But as im getting older (41 in a few months) the more I want for not only myself but for my man. We are devoted to each other, but have never been sexually compatible. I blame myself mostly as I haven't been sexually honest with him (stupidly thinking in not wanting to hurt his feelings) but as you will all know, resentment has set in inside me. Ive never orgasmed with my husband (again I DO blame myself) but in the last few months I have changed that and been honest and open with him. As Ive stated I adore him and even though I have been honest both inside and outside the bedrooms in what I need he hasn't changed his approach in the bedroom. Im at a loss as where to go from here. I know I can orgasm as I masturbate everyday (at one stage in life I didn't think I could...didn't have my first orgasm till I was 23-24) but it seems my head just shutsdown as soon as we start having sex....he does the same thing, in the s ame spot, in the same positions. Ive asked for change and tried being very frank in letting him know what Id like to try...even suggested he read things...but he doesn't. Im not unattractive, I keep myself slim and fit and make sure we go out on date nights to have the alone time to keep us strong as a couple...I always dress up for him and keep myself tidy....but im wondering how much do I keep doing? I really want to have an orgasm WITH him...but nothings changing. He does premature ejaculate and always has and refuses to seek professional help...ive been very supportive and NEVER belittle him or make a big deal of it as I don't want him to feel worse. Resentment has set in I know and for ths I feel like crap...I am trying not to feel like this...but its getting louder. I refuse to walk away from our relationship because he is a wonderful man, a good Father and there is so much I adore about him...I want to explore a D/s side to our sexual relationship and have asked him a nd left not so subtle hints but again nothing. I run our lives(looks after three kids full time, run the household, pay all bills, repair broken things, maintain our acreage by myself) he works VERY hard also in a very demanding job...but as soon as he steps in the door he stops. Im ok with that...except in the bedroom...I need more. What do I do next???:confused:
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