I am in love with my friend. But she has a boyfriend who lives in another country. (Long distance relationship 4+ yrs) She plans to marry him.
I told her how I feel and she said that I already know she has a boyfriend and that she loves him and that I shouldn't be selfish.
I said ok I'm sorry but we will stay friends.
I'm finding it very difficult. Staying her friend I want to do because we are really good friends and I don't want to stop being friends with her.
But it's so hard :(. Whenever I look at her, my heart just dies a little inside.
I don't know what to do. Unrequited love is the worst feeling ever.
I can't tell her how I feel again or it will ruin our friendship. I was already very close to ruining it the first time I told her. She said to me we can't be friends anymore because she doesn't want to see me sad. But I said to her don't worry I will be ok.
But I'm really not ok.
It's currently the summer holidays so I haven't seen her for 2 months and I won't see her until October.
I know she loves somebody else but I keep hoping for something that just won't happen.
It's not a nice feeling. I feel so conflicted and sad. I just can't shake it off.
I am always thinking what is she doing, how is she, etc.
Do I have any chance of being more than friends with her? If not, how can I just treat her like any normal friend and make those feelings go away? I really don't know what to do.
I could really use some advice please.
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