Well, I have been stupid all this time, and really I missed my chance last year, but nevertheless there s this girl back when I was 16 (I'm 19 now) who I fell in love (Yes actually) as soon as I saw her in my class. She was in one of my classes for college and I saw her about six times a week during from 2011-2012. During that time I never made a single move and didn't even talk to her - I really couldn't because I didn't even know her, I don't even have Facebook so I couldn't add her.
During 2012-2013 I think she dropped out of class because I think she got a crap grade at the end of the year. I saw her frequently during the rest of the year (even these moments when I did - the memories I'll have for a long time). I still retained little hope that one day we could perhaps see each other. My hopes were dashed when I saw her walking with a guy - I think I mistook this guy to be her bf when he really wasn't (I'll explain later). At the end of our year in May 2013, I kind of lost all hope (even though I thought at the time she had a bf) and because we were both moving onto uni. But the thing is, I've never really stopped thinking about this girl, its driving me crazy everyday - even though I can barely remember her. I dont actually have facebook but I made a fake facebook account so I could see her profile updates and pictures. I even stalked her friends and family just so I could see their updates just in case she was in them :(. I didn't add her or anyone by the way, even though I did have a fake account I just couldn't still...
I do feel extremely bad about this, I'm at uni and I have tried to fall for other girls - which I could potentially be with. But even then, I just cant let her go. And just a few minutes ago now I found out that she is actually in a relationship with a guy she must have met at uni because he is also a fresher at her uni. So really, what can I do????
I really want to be with her - I just cant get over it, and at the same time realize I cant because: A. She is in a relationship
B. We are miles apart
and C. even though we could see each other in our town this is extremely unlikely.
And not to mention, before I sound like a complete creep, I think she did like me back: at times I would catch her looking at me (it seems she would look at me more than me looking at her), O even caught her smiling once while looking at me and just randomly stare at me one time and also laugh when she was sat next to me (when she had no reason to).
Sorry, if this is quite long but for the last 3 whole years I felt she has dominated my life. And even though I knew we were never going to be together (despite me not trying), I feel like her being in the relationship is the final nail in the coffin. But the problem is, regardless I still cant get over her.... It's not only affecting my relationship with other people but also my study and stuff. Like seriously, when I see the back off someones head - I sometimes think it's her because her hair resembles it - even though I know it's not. WTF can I do??
Sorry if this is quite long for something that never really happened...
During 2012-2013 I think she dropped out of class because I think she got a crap grade at the end of the year. I saw her frequently during the rest of the year (even these moments when I did - the memories I'll have for a long time). I still retained little hope that one day we could perhaps see each other. My hopes were dashed when I saw her walking with a guy - I think I mistook this guy to be her bf when he really wasn't (I'll explain later). At the end of our year in May 2013, I kind of lost all hope (even though I thought at the time she had a bf) and because we were both moving onto uni. But the thing is, I've never really stopped thinking about this girl, its driving me crazy everyday - even though I can barely remember her. I dont actually have facebook but I made a fake facebook account so I could see her profile updates and pictures. I even stalked her friends and family just so I could see their updates just in case she was in them :(. I didn't add her or anyone by the way, even though I did have a fake account I just couldn't still...
I do feel extremely bad about this, I'm at uni and I have tried to fall for other girls - which I could potentially be with. But even then, I just cant let her go. And just a few minutes ago now I found out that she is actually in a relationship with a guy she must have met at uni because he is also a fresher at her uni. So really, what can I do????
I really want to be with her - I just cant get over it, and at the same time realize I cant because: A. She is in a relationship
B. We are miles apart
and C. even though we could see each other in our town this is extremely unlikely.
And not to mention, before I sound like a complete creep, I think she did like me back: at times I would catch her looking at me (it seems she would look at me more than me looking at her), O even caught her smiling once while looking at me and just randomly stare at me one time and also laugh when she was sat next to me (when she had no reason to).
Sorry, if this is quite long but for the last 3 whole years I felt she has dominated my life. And even though I knew we were never going to be together (despite me not trying), I feel like her being in the relationship is the final nail in the coffin. But the problem is, regardless I still cant get over her.... It's not only affecting my relationship with other people but also my study and stuff. Like seriously, when I see the back off someones head - I sometimes think it's her because her hair resembles it - even though I know it's not. WTF can I do??
Sorry if this is quite long for something that never really happened...
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