Hi guys
I made a post a few months ago so sorry if im repeating myself but things have developed and im feeling awful.
I got into a relationship with my boyfriend 3 years ago, I was a virgin and never had a boyfriend before its not an excuse at all but I was stupid and naïve. We waited a long time till we slept together nearly 6 months because I only really wanted to ever sleep with somebody I loved. My boyfriend has slept with over 10 woman all of them casual or one night stands. The girl he was with just before he got with me was sleeping with other people while she was sleeping with him (and he the same) but they didn't use protection. Stupidly and I know it was very stupid I thought unprotected sex was only if the whole 'act' was without protection. When we slept together for the first time I just went along with what he said as I assumed he knew what he was talking about.
As a result a year down the line I discovered I had chlamydia I made him take the test and he had it. He told me that he had never had an STI test although he had slept around. I am not blaming him at all because I know its all my fault as I should have made him get tested and didn't but hindsight is a wonderful thing.
Ive developed a ovarian cyst which ive had for over a year now, my doctor said (im repeating what the doctor said) that chlamydia can cause ovarian cysts. I went for an internal scan last week which was completely embarrassing but I have to have an operation on my cyst as its now nearly the size of the ovary the operation causes the risk of damaging the ovary. I also had damage on the ovary I couldn't quite understand what the doctor meant but I asked what caused this and he said most likely the chlamydia, I then asked if he thought it would affect fertility and he said there is a strong possibility it will make it extermlly difficult for me to conceive in the future.
Im absolutely devastated my dream is to be a mum ive always wanted children since I was little and it feels me with dread to think it may never happen. On top of this im completely humiliated by my scans and operations and that people may assume Im some silly idiot whose slept around without protection. I know its not my boyfriends fault but I cant even bear to look at him I feel so hurt and upset that I don't even want to speak to him I don't want him near me at the moment. I know I shouldn't be being so horrible to him as its not his fault its mine but when I told him all he could say was 'oh well' Im so confused about how I feel and don't know what to do.
I made a post a few months ago so sorry if im repeating myself but things have developed and im feeling awful.
I got into a relationship with my boyfriend 3 years ago, I was a virgin and never had a boyfriend before its not an excuse at all but I was stupid and naïve. We waited a long time till we slept together nearly 6 months because I only really wanted to ever sleep with somebody I loved. My boyfriend has slept with over 10 woman all of them casual or one night stands. The girl he was with just before he got with me was sleeping with other people while she was sleeping with him (and he the same) but they didn't use protection. Stupidly and I know it was very stupid I thought unprotected sex was only if the whole 'act' was without protection. When we slept together for the first time I just went along with what he said as I assumed he knew what he was talking about.
As a result a year down the line I discovered I had chlamydia I made him take the test and he had it. He told me that he had never had an STI test although he had slept around. I am not blaming him at all because I know its all my fault as I should have made him get tested and didn't but hindsight is a wonderful thing.
Ive developed a ovarian cyst which ive had for over a year now, my doctor said (im repeating what the doctor said) that chlamydia can cause ovarian cysts. I went for an internal scan last week which was completely embarrassing but I have to have an operation on my cyst as its now nearly the size of the ovary the operation causes the risk of damaging the ovary. I also had damage on the ovary I couldn't quite understand what the doctor meant but I asked what caused this and he said most likely the chlamydia, I then asked if he thought it would affect fertility and he said there is a strong possibility it will make it extermlly difficult for me to conceive in the future.
Im absolutely devastated my dream is to be a mum ive always wanted children since I was little and it feels me with dread to think it may never happen. On top of this im completely humiliated by my scans and operations and that people may assume Im some silly idiot whose slept around without protection. I know its not my boyfriends fault but I cant even bear to look at him I feel so hurt and upset that I don't even want to speak to him I don't want him near me at the moment. I know I shouldn't be being so horrible to him as its not his fault its mine but when I told him all he could say was 'oh well' Im so confused about how I feel and don't know what to do.
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