Just done!!!!

I haven't posted anything in a while. Well I did yesterday because I am pregnant and going to have a baby girl and I had to share!!! anyway.... I don't know where to start really. I can say that it is the same exact thing as it has been over the years, though it changed for a short while and things were looking up, but it has started all over again.. I am really lost, I am ****ing tired of it. Again haven't had sex in a little while (months) and usually when this happens there is something up (I am not an idiot) I was looking for a phone number on h's phone this morning for a reference for my son (another story) I decided to look at the browser history on his phone, bad idea.. Porn and lots of it. We talked about this last Sept.. I told him if i found the **** again I am done.. It isn't about the porn, per say it is because we aren't having SEX at all. He is never in the mood, I wonder why?? I want sex pregnant or not.. My needs don't matter to him I guess. No matter how much I talk to him it goes in one ear and out the other... He doesn't give a **** about me. I am just so tired of it and he doesn't give a ****, obviously. Me finding a job isn't working out.. I have been applying for OVER a year now and now that I am pregnant no one will hire a 5 month pregnant woman! It's not like I can hide it at this point.But i haven't given up, I am still trying to get something, anything.. I don't know what in the hell I am going to do now. I am tired of living like this, I cant do it anymore and I am not going to.

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