Craigslist and husbands affair

Hello everyone, I'm new to this board, so thank you in advance for listening. Last week, I went on Craigslist in hopes of finding a phone for my daughter, she has been wanting an Iphone and they are super expensive. Anyway, once on the main page, I noticed that casual encounters was highlighted, which meant someone had been looking at this? I checked the history and sure enough, there were a few posts read from casual encounters. When my husband arrived home that night, I asked if it were him, and he confessed yes he had looked, but only looked. Two years ago, he had confessed to an emailing affair, but only emailing. However, last night he admitted to me that he had posted an ad on Craigslist two years ago, and had actually had sex with a woman named Stephanie on two occasions. I am a mess, emotionally. My husband also confessed that he has a habit of porn and erotic stories and has started counseling to deal with that. I originally thought we were just dealing with porn and looking at stuff on the net, but now this confession. Basically he slept with this woman and continued on with our marriage. Tuesday night he told me he loved me but he didn't know if he was in love with me, but wants to try to work things out. I feel angry, sick, ugly, I'm comparing myself to that woman, all the women he looks at in porn. How could he have sex with her and still have sex with me after? I feel like it was all fake, one big act. On top of this my kiddo is in the military and heading overseas for deployment. I feel as if I am hanging on by an emotional thread barely.

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