I started speaking to this guy on some gay dating app thingy a while ago (last yr). The app is mainly for promiscuous guys looking for a quick one-night fling.
This one guy messaged me and asked me what I was looking for and I replied that I wasn't looking for anything in particular. He said 'same'.
At first I wasn't too interested. I would get 100s of people messaging me daily across three apps and he was just 'another guy' in my eyes.
Eventually, however, I gave him my number and we talked for a long time about random crap and it was nice - he has an awesome personality and is mega funny. He then called me and we were on the phone for hours on end just talking about random stuff - well into the night. And this happened for a while until he eventually suggested we meet up, so I said sure.
We met and watched a film and talked and stuff. One thing which cropped up was this awkwardness between us. I was so nervous and not used to meeting guys like this and I'm already introverted and conversation often died down and we had nothing to say and it was silent. He was really outgoing and stuff but because I'm such a ****ing social moron I pretty much made things ****ty.
We later spoke via text, when the day was over, and he was complimentary to me and said I was attractive and it was nice to meet. But I think he said it through gritted teeth :/ it just didn't feel as exciting as our over-the-phone had been.
We stopped talking for a while (even via text). I knew I ****ed things up.
I then decided to plague him with millions of texts until he finally replied and came up with some bull that he had been busy. I was upset by that and totally stopped talking to him and vowed to never speak to him again because he had really made me mad with such a weak excuse.
Anyway, I started getting over our friendship. I went back on the apps I had been on. And a while down the line a profile without a picture messaged me. I normally ignore those but for some reason replied. Meh. I asked the person to send a picture. The person wa reluctant and said 'once you get to know me' so I was like whatever. This person seemed cool and funny and even though he had no picture I at least liked his personality.
He eventually sent a picture and ughhh it was the guy I had met. He was 'sorry' and 'missed me'.
I conceded to let him talk to me. But he changed what he 'desired'. He was always banging on about how we should have sex and I didn't know what to think. I evaded his advances to be honest. And tried to force our convos into the direction of our previous chats.
He then gave me the silent treatment again, followed by talking to me about us 'meeting up for coffee'.
I've developed a strong liking for him. And I think it's because he's making himself so hard to get :(. I hate that I've become subject to such a prick's tactic. I don't know what he wants from me.
Btw I'm 18 and he's 22 if that adds anything.
This one guy messaged me and asked me what I was looking for and I replied that I wasn't looking for anything in particular. He said 'same'.
At first I wasn't too interested. I would get 100s of people messaging me daily across three apps and he was just 'another guy' in my eyes.
Eventually, however, I gave him my number and we talked for a long time about random crap and it was nice - he has an awesome personality and is mega funny. He then called me and we were on the phone for hours on end just talking about random stuff - well into the night. And this happened for a while until he eventually suggested we meet up, so I said sure.
We met and watched a film and talked and stuff. One thing which cropped up was this awkwardness between us. I was so nervous and not used to meeting guys like this and I'm already introverted and conversation often died down and we had nothing to say and it was silent. He was really outgoing and stuff but because I'm such a ****ing social moron I pretty much made things ****ty.
We later spoke via text, when the day was over, and he was complimentary to me and said I was attractive and it was nice to meet. But I think he said it through gritted teeth :/ it just didn't feel as exciting as our over-the-phone had been.
We stopped talking for a while (even via text). I knew I ****ed things up.
I then decided to plague him with millions of texts until he finally replied and came up with some bull that he had been busy. I was upset by that and totally stopped talking to him and vowed to never speak to him again because he had really made me mad with such a weak excuse.
Anyway, I started getting over our friendship. I went back on the apps I had been on. And a while down the line a profile without a picture messaged me. I normally ignore those but for some reason replied. Meh. I asked the person to send a picture. The person wa reluctant and said 'once you get to know me' so I was like whatever. This person seemed cool and funny and even though he had no picture I at least liked his personality.
He eventually sent a picture and ughhh it was the guy I had met. He was 'sorry' and 'missed me'.
I conceded to let him talk to me. But he changed what he 'desired'. He was always banging on about how we should have sex and I didn't know what to think. I evaded his advances to be honest. And tried to force our convos into the direction of our previous chats.
He then gave me the silent treatment again, followed by talking to me about us 'meeting up for coffee'.
I've developed a strong liking for him. And I think it's because he's making himself so hard to get :(. I hate that I've become subject to such a prick's tactic. I don't know what he wants from me.
Btw I'm 18 and he's 22 if that adds anything.
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