My husband told me in February that he isn't happy with our marriage and he hasn't been for about a year now so he wants to go and stay at his sisters house to see if he gets happy being away from me! So he left at the end of April. During this time he was going to counseling to figure things out..
I was being good and I gave him his space!! Yes we did have arguments here and there but other then that I thought I handle things quite well.. First week of July he told me that he's not coming home because I didn't get a job, and when ever he went out I whinged about it... That was his reasons!!
Yes I struggled to get a job for years!! I became pregnant at 18 and we both decided that I would be a stay at home mum.. Four years later I became pregnant again so same thing I stayed a stay at home mum!! As soon as both kids started school I tried to find work but nothing.. Years passed and I lost more and more confidence in myself!!! I got hung up on so many times and not even given a chance all because I was a stay at home mum!! Anyway I put on weight and basically lost all confidence I had left!! The only thing I got up for in the morning was knowing I had my family!!
Anyway when he told be he felt like this, I used ever waking minute to do my best to find a job!! I stopped looking locally (cause I still wanted to be there for my kids) and would do anything really!! Finally I got a job and I lost Weight because of all the stress and my confidence is starting to come back but he still wanted to leave!! I told him I only whinged because I was jealous of him going out and that I didn't feel like I deserved to go out because I didn't earn any money!! I mean I didn't even buy clothes unless mine had holes in them and I had no choice... I didn't even buy underwear until it broke or holes in them!!!
I just don't understand why he still left when I changed what he said was wrong?? Mind u he never help me find a job!! He knew I had problems and never offered to help!! He said he tried once to get me a job at his work but I didn't seem too keen on that idea!! Like come on why would I be happy about all your work friends and bosses find out how stupid and fat your wife was!! And like I wanted to spend day in and day out with u!! But that was the only help he gave!!
I'm struggling to deal with him leaving and so are my girls!! The youngest is taking things out on her self and started punching her self!! I just don't know if I can handle all the stress!! My girlfriend that I usually talk to is going through a really big thing her self so I don't want to put my burden on her and I usually talk to my mum but she is really stressed at seeing me and the girls so upset that she sends texts to my husband and makes matters worse!! So I'm at a loss and don't know what to do and the stress just keeps building and I think I will explode soon if I don't get help!!
I was being good and I gave him his space!! Yes we did have arguments here and there but other then that I thought I handle things quite well.. First week of July he told me that he's not coming home because I didn't get a job, and when ever he went out I whinged about it... That was his reasons!!
Yes I struggled to get a job for years!! I became pregnant at 18 and we both decided that I would be a stay at home mum.. Four years later I became pregnant again so same thing I stayed a stay at home mum!! As soon as both kids started school I tried to find work but nothing.. Years passed and I lost more and more confidence in myself!!! I got hung up on so many times and not even given a chance all because I was a stay at home mum!! Anyway I put on weight and basically lost all confidence I had left!! The only thing I got up for in the morning was knowing I had my family!!
Anyway when he told be he felt like this, I used ever waking minute to do my best to find a job!! I stopped looking locally (cause I still wanted to be there for my kids) and would do anything really!! Finally I got a job and I lost Weight because of all the stress and my confidence is starting to come back but he still wanted to leave!! I told him I only whinged because I was jealous of him going out and that I didn't feel like I deserved to go out because I didn't earn any money!! I mean I didn't even buy clothes unless mine had holes in them and I had no choice... I didn't even buy underwear until it broke or holes in them!!!
I just don't understand why he still left when I changed what he said was wrong?? Mind u he never help me find a job!! He knew I had problems and never offered to help!! He said he tried once to get me a job at his work but I didn't seem too keen on that idea!! Like come on why would I be happy about all your work friends and bosses find out how stupid and fat your wife was!! And like I wanted to spend day in and day out with u!! But that was the only help he gave!!
I'm struggling to deal with him leaving and so are my girls!! The youngest is taking things out on her self and started punching her self!! I just don't know if I can handle all the stress!! My girlfriend that I usually talk to is going through a really big thing her self so I don't want to put my burden on her and I usually talk to my mum but she is really stressed at seeing me and the girls so upset that she sends texts to my husband and makes matters worse!! So I'm at a loss and don't know what to do and the stress just keeps building and I think I will explode soon if I don't get help!!
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