My husband finally admitted to me after years and years of problems that he's addicted to porn.
He's never admitted it before and has never been open to trying to work on anything so I am hoping that this time he will.
He's always looked at porn and I always knew the first few times I caught him I was horrified and we would fight. He would always convince me it was no big deal. The issue was mine etc etc. since he had me so convinced I was the problem I would do everything I could to make him happy. I would do stuff I wasn't comfortable with just to get him to stop. I thought it worked but the truth is it never did. I get sick to my stomach to think about all the times he had sex with me and he probably didn't even want to.
He's done so much damage to me emotionally I am shocked that I am able to be supportive of him right now. Maybe because he's finally acting like he is committed to changing? I don't know. It all came to an ugly blow out fight after a month of not having sex he just went to bed one night and watched porn. I'd been mentioning the lack of sex for weeks, months really because we have probably had sex 5 times in the past 6 months.
I'm willing to help him but i also have to help myself. I don't think he has any clue what this all has truly done to me.
He's never admitted it before and has never been open to trying to work on anything so I am hoping that this time he will.
He's always looked at porn and I always knew the first few times I caught him I was horrified and we would fight. He would always convince me it was no big deal. The issue was mine etc etc. since he had me so convinced I was the problem I would do everything I could to make him happy. I would do stuff I wasn't comfortable with just to get him to stop. I thought it worked but the truth is it never did. I get sick to my stomach to think about all the times he had sex with me and he probably didn't even want to.
He's done so much damage to me emotionally I am shocked that I am able to be supportive of him right now. Maybe because he's finally acting like he is committed to changing? I don't know. It all came to an ugly blow out fight after a month of not having sex he just went to bed one night and watched porn. I'd been mentioning the lack of sex for weeks, months really because we have probably had sex 5 times in the past 6 months.
I'm willing to help him but i also have to help myself. I don't think he has any clue what this all has truly done to me.
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