It was never my idea to live in completely different cities and trust me what I thought was going to happen last year, the complete opposite happened. I was meant to be studying psychology but dropped out before the course started realising that it wasn't for me. I did fairly well in my A-levels but my boyfriend didn't, he managed to get a place at university in his home town and chose to still live at home - one of the reasons to save for us, to travel etc.
When I first applied to University I couldn't even talk about it with him, he just phased out, I eventually got it out of him that he was scared of losing me. Well I'm scared of losing him too, especially if I do move away. This past weekend my boyfriend and I were talking about me possibly moving, I knew that something wasn't the matter and he wouldn't tell me his true feelings about it just that he's not going to stop me and that I should go it would be easier. In a way it made me feel guilty that I wasn't staying at home with him...
I've talked and talked about moving in with him and commuting to university (an hour each way) but recently I've become apprehensive about commuting, especially since I looked up the train times. If I had to be there at 9AM it would mean getting on a train at 6 55AM because of when I got into the station. Where would we stay is about 20 minutes from the train station in a car as well.
The more I think about it the more appealing accommodation sounds but I'm scared that I'll ruin my relationship and I don't want to do that. Has anyone else got advice or been through similar situations?
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