I think what is slowly happening to me is I am losing any romantic feelings for my wife, much like it appears she has for me? My biggest fear and the reason I've been holding on emotionally is, what if I free myself and then she returns, will I trust to let her back in again? I know that she loves me, as I do her, but our ideas of "closeness" are vastly different now. She feels close to me just being in the same room, same bed, whether we interact at all and that feels like good friends to me with no emotional connection?
Sex was the first thing that changed my mindset. To avoid repeated hurting, over none, duty or passionless encounters, no oral, no foreplay etc., I don't desire it much anymore. I would never reject her or stop myself, if I thought it could happen, but I don't put forth the effort near as much?
Quality time is the second. We haven't had a date or romantic evening in a few years, with all of our babysitting, that now when it happens, I don't feel the desire to push for that either, she is just as content for us to spend time at home as I am?
I've figured if I give in to my "new" emotions, it keeps the resentment away, but I still fear that I will get too comfortable and not want the heart plunge again, if she has a sudden change of heart herself?
Has anyone ever let go, spouse comes back and you rejoin again?
Sex was the first thing that changed my mindset. To avoid repeated hurting, over none, duty or passionless encounters, no oral, no foreplay etc., I don't desire it much anymore. I would never reject her or stop myself, if I thought it could happen, but I don't put forth the effort near as much?
Quality time is the second. We haven't had a date or romantic evening in a few years, with all of our babysitting, that now when it happens, I don't feel the desire to push for that either, she is just as content for us to spend time at home as I am?
I've figured if I give in to my "new" emotions, it keeps the resentment away, but I still fear that I will get too comfortable and not want the heart plunge again, if she has a sudden change of heart herself?
Has anyone ever let go, spouse comes back and you rejoin again?
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