I'm not really sure how to go about this post. I've been married to my husband for 8 years. We have been together on and off since we were in middle school. We think that we have something special.
However, over the past few years...for some reason...he has started telling me that he wants me to sleep with another man. I had only ever been with him until a year ago.
I finally caved and had sex with an old high school friend. I knew then that I was not missing out on anything. It just wasn't anything special at all. I'm glad that I did it but was not impressed.
He gets turned on by it and I try to understand but I don't. We forgot about it for a while and then he brought it up again. I think I want to and then I get scared and just don't want to. We end up having huge fights over it. I feel like he doesn't appreciate me but he says he loves me.
We have two small kids...ages 7 years and 15 months. We get a babysitter once or twice a year if we are lucky. He says this is one thing that we can do that doesn't cost anything and its fun.
I ended up getting with another old friend from high school at his place a few months ago. This time was much better but..there's still nothing like my husband. Forgot about it again for a while and then his pestering started up again. So...I got with that guy again..but here in my home while my husband was in the other room listening.
It was forgotten about again for a while. We ended up swapping (same room) with another couple about two months ago. I thought that was his ultimate fantasy and that this would just go away after. No...
He's started pestering me to get with the second guy I was with again. I'm finding it hard to budge this time. Its just not something that I care to do...its not really that fun or hot to me. We do it and its over...
I don't understand why my husband is wanting this. If our sex life is that boring, surely there is something we can do instead of that. If we didn't have our kids, I'd pack my bags. I'm just trying to make sense of this and cross my fingers that he will let this go.
I don't see how this could be normal or okay. I want him to get this out of his head so bad!
However, over the past few years...for some reason...he has started telling me that he wants me to sleep with another man. I had only ever been with him until a year ago.
I finally caved and had sex with an old high school friend. I knew then that I was not missing out on anything. It just wasn't anything special at all. I'm glad that I did it but was not impressed.
He gets turned on by it and I try to understand but I don't. We forgot about it for a while and then he brought it up again. I think I want to and then I get scared and just don't want to. We end up having huge fights over it. I feel like he doesn't appreciate me but he says he loves me.
We have two small kids...ages 7 years and 15 months. We get a babysitter once or twice a year if we are lucky. He says this is one thing that we can do that doesn't cost anything and its fun.
I ended up getting with another old friend from high school at his place a few months ago. This time was much better but..there's still nothing like my husband. Forgot about it again for a while and then his pestering started up again. So...I got with that guy again..but here in my home while my husband was in the other room listening.
It was forgotten about again for a while. We ended up swapping (same room) with another couple about two months ago. I thought that was his ultimate fantasy and that this would just go away after. No...
He's started pestering me to get with the second guy I was with again. I'm finding it hard to budge this time. Its just not something that I care to do...its not really that fun or hot to me. We do it and its over...
I don't understand why my husband is wanting this. If our sex life is that boring, surely there is something we can do instead of that. If we didn't have our kids, I'd pack my bags. I'm just trying to make sense of this and cross my fingers that he will let this go.
I don't see how this could be normal or okay. I want him to get this out of his head so bad!
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