I'm almost 24 and i'm still afraid of women. Even when i get drunk i can't hit on them or talk to them. Only when they make the first move do i have the guts to talk to them and even then i don't really touch them or get sexual with them.
There's a woman at work who at lunch sat next to me. I desperately wanted to speak to her and have sex with her but i was afraid that people nearby would notice and judge me and i'd end up getting fired for even speaking to her. This happened a lot in school where i'd lose all my friends for even liking a girl. Now when i see a cute girl near me wants me to approach her i feel weird. I can't even ask a woman for help in a store without feeling like im doing something wrong.
I think i'm afraid of sex or something because i have had plenty of opportunities to lose it but i just sabotage the opportunity and hurt the other person by running away from them and avoiding them when they show interest.
I've got weird feelings around sex that seeing a girl like a boy fills me with rage, humiliation, shame and guilt. I feel that sex is only for the cool guys that get chosen by guys because that's the way it is in school and also in real life.
Anyway i have not been able to lose it naturally to someone who is willing so i have found a few escorts on the internet. I wanna know if its legal to do this because i dont wanna get arrested and become a registered sex offender because this will ruin my life.
Put the internet to work for you.
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