I feel so alone right now, I have been at university for 2 and half years, doing my last quarter until May, I moved towns to university for a better life as before.
I use to be a heroin addict, I quit in 2010 so I focus on college work and to my surprise I got in a few universities. I use to have bad anxiety problems as a teenager so I it used a escape, I didn't like I needed it so I moved on, I had to leave people behind who were nice people but not good for me.
So I started in new town new start made lots of friends, I became close to one of my friends I made there, a nice sweet girl who I also had a sexual relationship with, we have the same group of friends so we hang out together on nights out, recently she has been a total bitch towards me, she purposely makes out with guys in front of me to make feel jealous when I don't care. I told her i'm not interested in a serious relationship just yet but now she turned very horrible towards me, pushing me out of the social group.
I feel like I have no friends now as they all go off with her and nobody else notices how I feel with my anxiety. I feel no alone in this town now but I don't know what to do because I'm living in student halls at the moment. I was planning on staying in the town living in my own place, get a job and that but now I feel like I can't and if I go back to my hometown I will get stuck with the old crowd and I know i'll fall back into old habits if it involves being sociable.
I have no family and I am the last member of family still alive. My mum died during childbirth so I was raised by my dad who died of a heart attack on my first year of uni. All my grandparents have died of natural causes.
what do I do? just feel like nobody cares about me. I want someone to tell me they love me but I've never got that. Its hard to feel strong and breaking down.
Put the internet to work for you.
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