Brief history we have been together four years married one and two children, I know all of this is my fault and my problem but I just keep thinking now of just walking away,
We have both found ourselves unemployed and it's always the same arguments , him spending money we haven't got on crap, him smoking and him lying about everything to me when he knows I always catch him out.
He is a great husband and dad in every other way so why am I letting these things get to me so much I'm prepared to leave. I don't even sleep in the bedroom anymore I've moved all my stuff into my daughters room and sleep downstairs as though it's going to make any difference.
My husband has always been a smoker but the last few years it just makes me so incredibly angry, not just from the point that we don't have the money for it and we have got into such debt funding his smoking but also I hate him coming near me now smelling of smoke it completely puts me off any form of physical intimacy with him, he has tried quitting several times but can't do it, then there is his health I don't want him not around because he has died from smoking or Ill all the time because of what it does to you, I don't want to feel like a single mom doing most stuff on my own while he keeps going off for a fag. We can never do anything as a family because what is left over if there is anything goes on fags. But why am I letting it destroy our marriage .
I don't know how to get things back on track I've just shut all my emotions off completely. I know I love him because when I thought he was a trying to see another woman it made me physically ill but then I just go back to feeling like this and thinking we would be better off separated.
Has anyone else been in this position and can you give me any advice please.
We have both found ourselves unemployed and it's always the same arguments , him spending money we haven't got on crap, him smoking and him lying about everything to me when he knows I always catch him out.
He is a great husband and dad in every other way so why am I letting these things get to me so much I'm prepared to leave. I don't even sleep in the bedroom anymore I've moved all my stuff into my daughters room and sleep downstairs as though it's going to make any difference.
My husband has always been a smoker but the last few years it just makes me so incredibly angry, not just from the point that we don't have the money for it and we have got into such debt funding his smoking but also I hate him coming near me now smelling of smoke it completely puts me off any form of physical intimacy with him, he has tried quitting several times but can't do it, then there is his health I don't want him not around because he has died from smoking or Ill all the time because of what it does to you, I don't want to feel like a single mom doing most stuff on my own while he keeps going off for a fag. We can never do anything as a family because what is left over if there is anything goes on fags. But why am I letting it destroy our marriage .
I don't know how to get things back on track I've just shut all my emotions off completely. I know I love him because when I thought he was a trying to see another woman it made me physically ill but then I just go back to feeling like this and thinking we would be better off separated.
Has anyone else been in this position and can you give me any advice please.
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