I feel I'm being held back by recurring but sporadic bursts of shyness. Normally I'm not particularly the wallflower type (in fact I perversely quite like being the centre of attention- but only in certain situations) but in some cases I get an extreme case of the nerves that kind of clouds my conscience. It's not restricted to just romance, but a prominent example is when I'm around guys I like. With one guy in particular I felt so awkward that it close to ruined the relationship (though there were other factors in this too). Whenever he touched/kissed me I got the butterflies so bad that I couldn't even think straight and for some reason he found this an extreme turn off as I just stood there like a lemon looking completely shell-shocked rather than responding like a normal human. It got to the point where I'd rather avoid him altogether rather than flirting like I wish I could and ending up feeling so painfully self-conscious. I'm guessing my inexperience and quite bad self-esteem could be the reason. I've probably just yet to meet the right person – but does anyone have tips on how to get over this ridiculous nervousness? I overthink absolutely everything and find it very hard to let myself go, and even when I really want to do something I hold myself back – how do I learn to live in the moment and stop being so uptight? It seems I'll have to if I ever want a fully-functioning relationship ;)
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