So basically after all was said and done...i decided to look into dating....not to find a relationship but to find companionship...i had a few dates then met this wonderful woman on match.com. we hit it off...shes amazing....with me...my kids my family......she has a great job has made numerous sacrifices for our relationship etc.....and is very sexual....at times i find myself dreading seeing her....i havent been in the mood since all this divorce stuff started......sometimes i feel like i spent every thing to win my wife back that i have nothing left to offer her.....she gets very frustrated with me about this......i dont know what to tell her......i know its not all about my needs but i want it to mean something for us just not a robot performing a task....it could be part of the prozak... or part of the depression.....i dont know i had the low T test and thats not it.....i wish i knew.....on a side note.....HOW does a person let go of this... ..I hate seeing my old house...her face...his face for that matter....im in a better place but its still hard not to hate....ive made a comment about forgiveness and i believe that sooner or later i HAVE to to really move on.....but how......and the ex's parting shot for the weekend.....she was NEVER happy....the whole 17 years........nothing like cutting a man to the core.
Put the internet to work for you.
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