| We are five months after D-day 1, when I discovered about one affair (from Sept-Dec 2012), and three months on from D-day 2 (when I discovered about the second affair, from Dec 2012 - Jan 2013). I have no reason to believe he has been up to anything since I found him out in March and we are in Reconciliation. Mostly it's going okay. Neither of us is perfect, but we're muddling along. I can tell that he is trying, and so am I. But whenever I think about forgiving him for what he did, it's like I hit a brick wall. Forgiving seems to me to be saying that it's okay. It's not okay. It will never be okay. I will always have to deal with his infidelity and how it makes me feel. I still cry over it when I'm alone. I still find it hard to trust. My husband who I loved more than anything, and trusted totally, lied to me, and cheated on me with two other women. He can never undo what he did. He did it. How do you forgive something like that? What is forgiving anyway? | |||
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