I can see myself going violent

I've been with my boyfriend for 4 years now. He's in his final year of uni and i'm considering not going back in September. I found out he had a full on relationship last year behind my back and he told the other girl he loved her. Also I found out pretty much the whole time we've been together he's been unfaithfull. I've seen all the sex conversations and dirty pictures. I dont think he knows that I know everything. When he talks to me a certain way I can see myself just turning on him, like really physically hurting him. I scream at him inside my head 'how dare you treat me like this'. I hate to say I hate him.

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