LD religious wife that think i am a "freak"

I am coming from a place where Islam ideology have taken place & even lives in the process, And i am "secretly" Atheist. My wife got raised up by a very religious family that have strict rules and that's where i think the issue lies. We've been married since 9 months she's 19 and i am 23 our sex life has been so boring to the point that i enjoy masturbating more than sex and sometimes i can't even continue although she's pretty attractive & hot woman and she do all the house work she's very clean & take care of her body and she's also successful with work. She's LD and i am HD we have sex once a month or twice she doesn't seem to be interested in sex at all,aside from that for her it's just like a "robot" thing that we should do it only in the traditional position with no oral or different positions or some of my special requests which i believe are every man requests aside from that she doesn't have any expressions like the one you see in "porn" movies i know they'r not all that real but i just think i am doing it with a toy instead of my W. She'd be embarrassed if i dive in with oral or trying another position it makes her very uncomfortable she would refuse then i get turned off and end up sleeping in the other room. when i tried to show her a porn movie she literally threw up! We talked about this in an open conversation and she thinks that what i am asking her to do is nasty and b#tches work! and that she's not a one. i told her you're my wife she replied with i am giving you your rights and that's my body and that we should have respect to each other body and some of this BS that doesn't make any sense at all for me. she thinks this is an " ethics " matter. Every time i try to explain that i am not enjoying it she'd think that i am a freak, and she's really one of those egotistical girls. Now someone would ask why did i marry her this in the first place, Well things are little complicated here i actually didn't date her too much before marrying i just saw that she's pretty and attractive woman and i thought i will be able to later on convert her beliefs and that we'll be fine because we're going to spend a lot of time together, overall i just set high expectations. we love each other and i am attracted to her and she is to me, kisses & hugs happens every day between us, but she just appear to have some insecurities when it comes to sex she would turn into completely another woman. Although in Islam so-called "sharia laws" oral sex is allowed only anal is forbidden. My options are limited here because "D" isn't an easy one and i don't deeply want that to happen because i believe i can fix this, current status is that i am enjoying masturbating and fantasizing more than actually making sex and that frustrates me although i've been trying to be cold with her like ignoring her & trying not to talk or sit together so she knows she's not delivering but i don't really think that is the solution it's only my pride kicking in. i need your thoughts of course i missed some details but my head right now is just little confused & sorry for my English as it's my third language.

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