Is it bad to make your partner second best to your friends?

I feel that my boyfriend recently doesn't have all that much time for me. I feel like he sees me because its a chore or he just does it to keep me happy but that hes not actually happy. I see him once a week if that sometimes maybe once a fortnight because he works 9-5 goes to the gym plays football etc yet he always has time to see his friends. He probably sees his friends 3/4 times a week goes out with them clubbing or to bars on Friday and/or Saturday. When he sees me we don't really do anything which is fine but he wants to go to sleep at 11 or just watch football, in the morning he tells me I need to go making up some excuse yet when hes out with his friends he'll spend all night and day with them. He's recently just gone on holiday with his friend, hes gone on holiday in the med to sicily where me and my family go every year, I must have said for over 6 months how id love to go with him to sicily as I love it there and show him around the island and just spend a week relaxing. Instead hes gone to sicily with his friend and there just out drinking till 5 am everyday and clubbing. His friend is single so there bringing girls back to their apartment while I know my boyfriend wont be doing anything with these girls, I do feel very upset at the thought of him hanging round in his flat with these girls while his friend chats them up trying to get laid. I know if I went on a night out and there were two guys on holiday chattin g up girls id assume they were both single. Our relationship seems to have to fit around his socialising last month we had a weekend away but had to leave on the last day at 10am so he could get back to go out for his work party that night which upset me a bit as we were late going on holiday beucase he was having work drinks. Im going into hospital for a few days and come out on the Friday on the Saturday afternoon I leave to go back to uni and then I wont be able to see him for over 3 weeks. Hes saying he cant see me when I come out of hospital because again hes got a work night out,i asked if I could see him after and he could just miss the clubbing and he refused. I just feel really upset and second best but when I talk to him about it he makes out that im being controlling and clingy.. I don't know if im justified in how I feel or if I really am just being a drama queen and how to stop feeling like this.

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