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@#$%^&* this hurts, when does it ever stop?

I put these two posts in the reconciliation thread earlier, but I wonder if any of you have days like this. Replies from both BS and WS perspective are appreciated.

1) Ever have a really GREAT day with your FWS, then the next day it seems the bottom falls out and you get all triggery and twitchy? Such an awesome day yesterday and then this morning my mom mentions that my SIL (former POSOW friend, not now) made my MIL a FB page and my H gets upset that i am still FB friends with his sister (he and his sister don't speak since a falling out last year after all this went down). I shut down my FB account and he says I'm taking what he said too far. I told him I didn't want FB to cause any friction between us so I shut it down. He doesn't have FB anymore after his A. This is so ridiculous! It's making me trigger so hard even though I know it's BEEN over and there is NC.
He thinks my mood is affected by things I read on FB. The only thing I can think of that he's seeing is this last week I've been wondering if he remembers POSOW's birthday is coming up and how he's going to be on that day. He has a terrible time with birthdays (anyone's birthday, kids included). I haven't mentioned it because I want to wait and see.
I had a total stupid moment when, after he didn't answer my call or reply to my last text, I texted him "do you love me?" (yes, I know I'm not supposed to do that), and he texted me back "I can't believe you even have to ask me that, evidently I haven't convinced you"...
UGH! Why does this happen?

2) It's just so hard when He's the one who caused my trigger and he's upset. He's usually so good about being supportive and stepping up when stuff happens.
He has been in a lot of physical pain lately after another failed surgery, and a lot of my triggers happen when he is in pain because he gets quiet (the way he seemed to ignore me when he was having his A) but we went to the doctor yesterday and he got new medicine and we had such a great day after that, and an even better evening
Now this.




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