I have been with my boyfriend now for 4 years and in the beginning we were on and off a lot and he was talking to his ex and chatting up other girls.
I found out about 6 months ago he was seeing another girl after we got engaged and their relationship lasted for around 8 months. I also found out that he was sleeping with a girl who had a boyfriend (all while he had me and another girl on the go) and he slept with a girl at uni.
As mad as it sounds I can forgive what he's done and maybe in time stop the hurting, however im too scared to tell him I know about his infidelities. He doesn't know that I know anything.
As sorry as I am to admit it, he left me in a bad emotional state after he repeatedly left me in the beginning. When he decided to come back I felt like my heart had been mended and I knew for certain I really didn't want to ever lose him again. When we got together it was less than a year after id been attacked by a man in a nightclub and I was still feeling very vunerable so to me he became my lifeline. I was very depressed and being quite self destructive, he gave me reason to be happy again.
My other big fear is that if I burden him with what's troubling me now he might leave or cheat. Sometimes it geels safer to keep it all inside. Other times it feels too unbearable to keep on bottling it up. I just want the fear and insecurity to go away so I can deal with things.
Has anyone else felt like this before?
I found out about 6 months ago he was seeing another girl after we got engaged and their relationship lasted for around 8 months. I also found out that he was sleeping with a girl who had a boyfriend (all while he had me and another girl on the go) and he slept with a girl at uni.
As mad as it sounds I can forgive what he's done and maybe in time stop the hurting, however im too scared to tell him I know about his infidelities. He doesn't know that I know anything.
As sorry as I am to admit it, he left me in a bad emotional state after he repeatedly left me in the beginning. When he decided to come back I felt like my heart had been mended and I knew for certain I really didn't want to ever lose him again. When we got together it was less than a year after id been attacked by a man in a nightclub and I was still feeling very vunerable so to me he became my lifeline. I was very depressed and being quite self destructive, he gave me reason to be happy again.
My other big fear is that if I burden him with what's troubling me now he might leave or cheat. Sometimes it geels safer to keep it all inside. Other times it feels too unbearable to keep on bottling it up. I just want the fear and insecurity to go away so I can deal with things.
Has anyone else felt like this before?
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