As my divorce comes to an end, I have been very nostalgic and been thinking about our beginning.
I met a man who was very kind, friendly and good hearted. Conservative and traditional with very similar values as mine. He had tons of friends and was very close to his siblings. When we started dating we would go to sporting events, concerts, have bbqs at his house, dinner parties at my condo and I was instantly welcomed into his circle of friends and family. We were raised in same religion and had the same belief system of marriage and family.
After our wedding in 1996, we were thrilled to welcome nieces and nephews into the family while trying to start our own family. After 3 miscarriages and many tears we were blessed with the birth of our daughter.
Years of happiness followed with a man who loved his family. I miss that man that I truly loved and planned a life with.
Fast forward to today, that same man is no longer ... that man was replaced with a selfish liar, cheater, disrespectful, coward. A neglectful father, an absent son and sibling who would rather spend his last $10 on a cigar and a horserace bet than school supplies or a dinner with child.
Friends and business partners still come up and tell me they are baffled with his personality change and complete new lifestyle.
I was in it till death do us part but i now have to ask myself... death of what? Death of a person, death of respect, death of values, death of honesty. If that is the case, I stayed till the death.
I met a man who was very kind, friendly and good hearted. Conservative and traditional with very similar values as mine. He had tons of friends and was very close to his siblings. When we started dating we would go to sporting events, concerts, have bbqs at his house, dinner parties at my condo and I was instantly welcomed into his circle of friends and family. We were raised in same religion and had the same belief system of marriage and family.
After our wedding in 1996, we were thrilled to welcome nieces and nephews into the family while trying to start our own family. After 3 miscarriages and many tears we were blessed with the birth of our daughter.
Years of happiness followed with a man who loved his family. I miss that man that I truly loved and planned a life with.
Fast forward to today, that same man is no longer ... that man was replaced with a selfish liar, cheater, disrespectful, coward. A neglectful father, an absent son and sibling who would rather spend his last $10 on a cigar and a horserace bet than school supplies or a dinner with child.
Friends and business partners still come up and tell me they are baffled with his personality change and complete new lifestyle.
I was in it till death do us part but i now have to ask myself... death of what? Death of a person, death of respect, death of values, death of honesty. If that is the case, I stayed till the death.
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