I try to be open minded with my boyfriend and not be a clingy, needy, restrictive girlfriend. I said to him I am okay with him watching porn, which I am and I watch it sometimes myself although very rarely (once every couple of months and he knows about this).
For me it is not the fact that he watches porn daily it is that he exclusively watches 'Asian' and 'teen' porn. I mean 100%. He even watches it when I come to visit him and wants me to watch it with him but it kind of upsets me to see him getting off to that rather than to me. We are both 24 and he is white and I am mixed race (half white, half black). I'm not saying I expect him to watch only porn of mixed race girls (I don't even think there is any, although some of the Latinas look mixed I guess) but I feel awful that I can't live up to his fantasies even though I do put an effort into satisfying him sexually and I am very submissive (I've always been this way, it's not since he came along or anything). I recall when I first met his friends they jokingly warned me that he has a huge thing for 'Japanese' girls and I laughed it off but now I'm concerned. Of course a relationship is so much more than sex and we have a great connection and I adore him but I'm wondering if I'm wasting his time if I'm not his cup of tea. I really want someone who appreciates me for who I am and is mad about me rather than settling for me as second best.
What should I do, if anything? Am I being too paranoid?
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