How Do I Get Through This

I've been browing the forums here for the past few months and I think it's time I share my story and will hopefully have others share their story with me. I've been married for almost 9 years. Together for 11. Ever since my husband and I got married in Nov. 04 there has always been a major life factor in our life and I'll explain..when we got back from our honeymoon we found out I had cancer (remission for 8 years now) and the chances of us having kids were slim to none; during my recovery of the cancer our dog was diagnosed with cancer as well; we bought a house; moved into the house; had to have our dog put to sleep because of his illness; and my best friend passed aways from cancer. This happened all within 9 months of being married. We finally found out I was pregnant and had a baby in Sept.06. I had a hard time dealing with my best friends passing and my Husband would beg me to get help but I never would. We had our share of ups and downs but we always managed to stay together. I finally ended up going to see a counselor for being depressed about my best friend. Now fast forward to July of 2012. By husband wanted a separat ion. He left July 27, 2012. It was so hard on our son at the time but he managed so well, did excellant in school and was always happy. Me, I was devestated. I didn't want the separation although I knew things weren't right. He evenutally came home June 7 this year and a few days ago told me he wanted a divorce and he didn't love me like he did before. We told our son last night who is heartbroken. We explained everything we should have to him that he is loved more than anything, he will have 2 happy homes and we will always be there for him. It is killing me to see him cry and asking questions and I am doing the best I can for him. My husband is the best dad and will always be in our sons life. I guess I am just looking for someone else who has been in my shoes and can shed some light for me. I am hanging on by a string and I'm afraid it's going to snap. I have a great support system from my parents and my best friend and some other friends so I thank god for that. I never thought in a million years I would be in this position. I love my husband so much and don't want this to happen but I know I can't make someone love me and I know I need to focus on our son. Thanks for listening...

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