I don't know what to do for the best :(

I have been with my husband for 10 years and married for nearly 2. The past year has been very difficult for me, he had become an unpleasant person to be with, I did everything around the house, sorted bills, did the shopping whilst juggling a stressful job and I became seriously unhappy. He would come home on week nights drunk and shout and argue with me about stupid things, I have felt so alone and unloved for a long time now. One thing I need to make very clear is that my husband is the hardest person to talk to, he always turns it into a big row and I hate confrontation, I had tried to tell him several times that I was unhappy with how things were, but he just got stroppy and it got brushed under the carpet. Recently, things have come to a head, we had a row before I went on a girl's night out and I went out feeling angry. I ended up very drunk and ended up kissing a male friend, it meant nothing and was just one peck, I know its still wrong but it happened. My husband found out the very next morning as an old friend of his saw me. He was understandably very angry at first. But after a chat about why I had done it, he told me he would change and wanted to be with me. Trouble is, I have lost alot of love for him over the past year, I have spent so much time being unhappy and I don't know if I can ever feel the same for him again...I think it may be too late. I never thought this would happen to us, but he has become someone very different to the man I married. He still loves me like crazy, I still care for him and don't want to hurt him, but I want to be happy. I can't go on pretending. Advice would be much appreciated!!

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