I'm only posting this because I've had a bit too drink, so please bear with me. I'm just curious, does any feel or is the same as me?
I'm 22 and a virgin, not by choice but also not because I am forever alone; it is because I honestly don't care. Ever since I was 16 I have listened to my friends talk about how that guy/girl is fit and about people they fancy, but I have never felt this way (maybe rarely). All through Uni and past it I listen to people talk about who they fancy, who they want to sleep with, and their girlfriend/boyfriend, whilst I sit in the corner nodding in agreement. In all my life I have never fancied someone (maybe one but not entirely sure), although I have lusted after women. This has made me feel somewhat excluded. I can't connect with people who do have 'normal' relationships or with people who don't and whose attempts to create one I view as desperate because I would never do that. I would like a relationship, but when I imagine it, it is more about intimacy on an emotional level rather than something physical.
I have never put much thought into a relationship/sex before, but since I left Uni and all my friends are in relationships I am starting to question myself as to whether it is who I am or what I do that is preventing me from having a relationship. If I do think about it I don't really have much to offer a partner nor do I mind being single (as long as my friends don't mock me about it), it's more the idea about being alone forever that bothers me. As such I have found myself trying to force myself to like girls in a way I don't usually do, I have in the past seen a girl and thought 'she is pretty' but never 'she is pretty I must talk to her'. I am very apathetic about the whole thing and I am wondering whether I haven't put in the right amount of effort or I haven't met the right woman for me.
I'm just curious whether anyone else feels this way or if it just me?
(Apologies for any spelling/syntax errors, I have been drinking)
I'm 22 and a virgin, not by choice but also not because I am forever alone; it is because I honestly don't care. Ever since I was 16 I have listened to my friends talk about how that guy/girl is fit and about people they fancy, but I have never felt this way (maybe rarely). All through Uni and past it I listen to people talk about who they fancy, who they want to sleep with, and their girlfriend/boyfriend, whilst I sit in the corner nodding in agreement. In all my life I have never fancied someone (maybe one but not entirely sure), although I have lusted after women. This has made me feel somewhat excluded. I can't connect with people who do have 'normal' relationships or with people who don't and whose attempts to create one I view as desperate because I would never do that. I would like a relationship, but when I imagine it, it is more about intimacy on an emotional level rather than something physical.
I have never put much thought into a relationship/sex before, but since I left Uni and all my friends are in relationships I am starting to question myself as to whether it is who I am or what I do that is preventing me from having a relationship. If I do think about it I don't really have much to offer a partner nor do I mind being single (as long as my friends don't mock me about it), it's more the idea about being alone forever that bothers me. As such I have found myself trying to force myself to like girls in a way I don't usually do, I have in the past seen a girl and thought 'she is pretty' but never 'she is pretty I must talk to her'. I am very apathetic about the whole thing and I am wondering whether I haven't put in the right amount of effort or I haven't met the right woman for me.
I'm just curious whether anyone else feels this way or if it just me?
(Apologies for any spelling/syntax errors, I have been drinking)
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