Not sure how to handle this. Do you openly talk about what happened or just carry on like it is another day? Every time I get sad-thinking about what my husband was doing a year ago-he gets angry and defensive or just ignores me until I'm no longer sad. I have realized he is just not capable of offering comfort-but don't know how to mask my emotions. I have quit asking questions as they just sparked arguments and accusations that I haven't healed and that I have ruined our progress. I'm just worried that I will not be able to hide what I'm feeling and am really not looking forward to him getting mad at me because I am sad.
As I sit here typing-I know many of you will say that I am in a false r and I would agree. He continuously lied to me, he is still not telling me everything, he blamed me for the affairs-saying he didn't think I loved him, refuses joint marriage counseling, and so much more. However, he is far kinder to me than he ever was-if I can find a way to get past this pain-the quality of my life would be so much better. It's so ironic that I have live with emotional and verbal abuse for over 23 years-and was able to get past it all-and yet I can't get past his infidelity.
As I sit here typing-I know many of you will say that I am in a false r and I would agree. He continuously lied to me, he is still not telling me everything, he blamed me for the affairs-saying he didn't think I loved him, refuses joint marriage counseling, and so much more. However, he is far kinder to me than he ever was-if I can find a way to get past this pain-the quality of my life would be so much better. It's so ironic that I have live with emotional and verbal abuse for over 23 years-and was able to get past it all-and yet I can't get past his infidelity.
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