No affection and virtually Invisible... But I'm the psychotic "B"

Ive been in a relationship with a guy for a year and a half. He has a son who just turned 11 and has Asperger's syndrome. when we first started dating, it was pretty volitile and I know I should have ran then, but I kept being told I'm just jealous and insecure. This is the problem: My bf (John-not real name) has a son who just turned 11. My bf is extrememly affectionate with his son. He doesnt really spend any quality time with him, but he will go in and hug, kiss and lay with him in the bed every ten minutes when he is at my house. I can go into another room, and he doesnt so much as come in to say hello to me. I have been run out of my bed on numerous ocassions because his son will come into our room wanting his daddy to hold him. I cannot sleep in the bed with an 11 year old child, especially a male and extremely especially when he is naked. I pitch a fit about it and am told that I am being a childish bitch. We went out of town this weekend. The whole drive down, my bf was "Hey, jj, look at that" "hey jj, I love you", he would reach behind the seat and rub his leg and in the hotel room with two double beds, he chose to sleep with his son and didn't even say good night to me. I lost it. I pitched a tantrum. I am so sick of this feeling invisible and ignored. He isn't even attentive to me when his son isnt around, but when he is, it is all I can do to keep the tears from flowing. It's like he is in love with his son and I am just the kid. I went to get a drink from the machine yesterday and when I came back, they were sitting there and my bf had his arm around his son and hand on his behind. There were thousands of people there and I didnt observe any other parent acting that way toward their kid. So, am I really crazy? Is this really normal behavior? I don't see anything in sexual nature between them, but it does creep me out that he acts that way with his son and he likes to be around children and look at porn with barely legal girls. I am so lost and I really don't know what to do. It huts so much to give love and feel like it means absolutely nothing. I can go in and wake him up sweetly and lay my head on his chest, nothing. he rarely touches me and that is only when he has been drinking. its so depressing i wish I could just drop off the face of the earth. I don't even think he would notice.

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