Does my Gay Best friend Love me?

I am In love with my gay best friend (I'm female (22), he's male (19), and into men) Cliche, I know. But before I am judged I would like to explain what our relationship is like and as you will see it is very confusing. We spend pretty much everyday with each other with maybe a gap in between, we hold hands, we kiss on the mouth and snog (sober) we have a quite sexual relationship although it is mostly one sided with me doing the giving.. He tells me he loves me everyday, nearly every hour.. Naturally, I thought - Sex and Sexuality are two different things. So what if he can be turned on by me by just kissing? Does that make him bisexual? I had decided initally, no. So I didn't let myself think anything of all of this apart from a bit of fun with him. Then one night, he got really drunk, and he told me he may be falling for me, and that he thought he was bisexual. Whilst drunk I told him that he was just confused and I was sorry for confusing him and that I didn't want to change him. The day after he talked to me about it and told me he didn't mean it, he was drunk and confused and was much clearer that he didn't think of me that way and didn't love me like that. But the damage had been done, all that day I had let myself believe that maybe he was falling for me and maybe he could be bisexual and I let my mind wander and now because I have let my barrier down I have fallen for him. I told him last night, and I explained to him that I understand he can't love me back or want me because I'm the wrong gender. Now, here is the confusing part, he told me it is not about gender but it's about how he described "our love being stronger than anything he will ever experience and how he wants it to last forever, relationships don't last" I told him one day, he will find a man who he loves more to which he replied would be impossible because he doesn't want anybody and describes any man as a 'string of lovers'. So, here I am, stuck in love with my best friend, in a relationship that very much feels like girlfriend and boyfriend without the title, and every time he mentions finding someone or a future with another man it breaks my heart. Is he young and confused? and mistaking our friendship for what he calls 'a better love than being in love' or does he actually love me and can't admit he's bisexual? Sincerely, Confused & Lost.

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