Help, my world is falling apart

Hi everyone.. Where to start... Last July I was pregnant and lost the baby at 5 months, my husband was acting weird, whilst pregnant, staying out at a party, lying about buying books, flowers etc..., then in oct he went away for a course, only later I found he wasn't at the course for 3 days with work, finally after 2 months after me nagging as I felt like something was wrong he confessed he just went out with friends for 3 for the 3 nighs partying. Something just didn't sit right he was behaving weirdly, really sexually charged, constantly in his own world... He knew I didn't like these new work people he was going out, and one lady in particular, but they would text randomly, he was being weird with his pone, showers as soon as he came home, but constantly telling me, I'm going crazy and nothing is going on. Then I recieve a DVD in the post of him getting very intimate with the same women I dislike in e back of the car... They claim it was only going on for 3 months, but I have messages that show it was going on for almost a year.. I Was devastated, I couldn't believe it, I took my 3 children and left him.. Since then he has been grovelling and pleading for forgiveness and claims he was leading a double life and he couldn't stop himself... He has made some serious changes in his life, but can't leave that work place for another 4 months. I said to him I wanted to know everything about what had hapened, it appeared he was having 3 other emotional affairs, before this women came along.. He swears they never had sex it was only oral, and only last night he told me the 3 nights he stayed away they did sleep together, my whole world has shattered again, I felt like I was strong and now I'm weak again. His mistress has also contacted me and tells me the same stories that he does even after they change their stories, which makes me think they still talk at work via there internal email. His truth/confessions about his double life keep changing, I just wanted to know the truth, about the affair, but he just won't be honest and tell me, he is desperate for us to work, but the other women wants him to leave me. I just don't know whatto do, I want the truth, I given him every threat under the sun, and just as I let him in a little more lies come out about his past, we have children together, I rely in him financially and the kids love him.... I just don't know what to do.. Please can someone help, this has been ongoing for the last 10 months. This is only a brief insight. Please feel free to ask any questions,

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