My name is Amy and I'm a mother of four beautiful smart children whose ages are from 11-4 years old. I have just got done with a divorce that has lasted three years since it was filed and it ended in June of 2015. I was living on my own with my children the entire time. I struggled to pay the bills but was got by.
In March of 2015 I was contacted on POF by a man who I remember riding the school bus with. I didn't know him well but remembered he was attractive. When I first met him he made my heart melt and I instantly felt a connection with him that I never felt before. I had been just dating people for three years on and off but was never in love. This man changed that for me. Since we met again we haven't been a day apart.
I have found out a lot about him that I didn't know ( how was I suppose to know) but it didn't change the fact I love him though. He eventually started staying with me pretty quick. He helps pay the bills and likes to play with the kids. He has two kids of his own thY come every other weekend for the most part.
We just started renting a bigger home for us all and he asked me to marry him in August. I of course said yes because I love this man and he makes me feel incredible.
He and I both have our flaws and both have been through scrappy relationships and I think our frustration is running high. We lose patience with each other and we argue about random things weekly. I feel he is ready to leave at anytime because he keeps making comments about us fighting too much about dumb stuff and said he can't keep doing it. I feel threated he is on the edge. How does this come across to u?
We tend to argue mostly via text while we are at work. Which he said I'm 'reason we argue so much . He says I start stupid fights and he will say what he wants then ignore me til I see him at home and I then have to beg for him to talk to me.
I'm always the one having to mend things back to where he isn't just boiling over as time goes. I love him so much. He has an I don't care attitude and will tell you how he feels no matter how it makes you feel. He said he can't control it. He isn't verbally abusive he just doesn't think about how his words or actions can affect someone.
He hates that I'm not ok with him drinking or smoking and that he feels he is a grown man and can do it if he wants. He did it when we first met but told me he would quit for me and the kids. His kids have been happy about it as well. He will smoke every once in a while and will drink every few days*I'm not sure how often because he wouldn't tell me. He doesn't act out when he drinks it's just I don't want to be with someone who craves alcohol. I feel if he is thirsty water can help lol ( that's exaggerating but u get my point) I feel people use it as an escape somehow and I don't see why if someone quits smoking that they keep smoking every few days it's weird. I just dont understand.
I try to talk to him about my feelings but when I do it always makes him upset. It turns into an argument and then he just tells*me he's tired of fighting and then he won't talk to me anymore. I don't want to fight and I don't try to. I am very careful about the way I say things and feel communication is very important and I failed on not sharing my feelings in my first two marriages.
When things are good things are really good. But when they are bad they are just bad and I get a feeling from him he wants to give up which in turn has me feeling maybe we should too.
I have thought plenty of times about just taking time apart but most of the time the couple stays apart. I can't afford the bills on my own and don't want to have to move my four children and honestly I don't want to be without him.
I love him so much and I don't want to be without him because the good times overdo the bad times to me. But I know he gets tired of me being so sensitive and telling him everything I am not happy with about things going on.
What do I do? Do I just start keeping things to myself and hope the feeling subsides and just pretend everything is ok? I honestly don't know . Maybe I sound insane lol who knows.
In March of 2015 I was contacted on POF by a man who I remember riding the school bus with. I didn't know him well but remembered he was attractive. When I first met him he made my heart melt and I instantly felt a connection with him that I never felt before. I had been just dating people for three years on and off but was never in love. This man changed that for me. Since we met again we haven't been a day apart.
I have found out a lot about him that I didn't know ( how was I suppose to know) but it didn't change the fact I love him though. He eventually started staying with me pretty quick. He helps pay the bills and likes to play with the kids. He has two kids of his own thY come every other weekend for the most part.
We just started renting a bigger home for us all and he asked me to marry him in August. I of course said yes because I love this man and he makes me feel incredible.
He and I both have our flaws and both have been through scrappy relationships and I think our frustration is running high. We lose patience with each other and we argue about random things weekly. I feel he is ready to leave at anytime because he keeps making comments about us fighting too much about dumb stuff and said he can't keep doing it. I feel threated he is on the edge. How does this come across to u?
We tend to argue mostly via text while we are at work. Which he said I'm 'reason we argue so much . He says I start stupid fights and he will say what he wants then ignore me til I see him at home and I then have to beg for him to talk to me.
I'm always the one having to mend things back to where he isn't just boiling over as time goes. I love him so much. He has an I don't care attitude and will tell you how he feels no matter how it makes you feel. He said he can't control it. He isn't verbally abusive he just doesn't think about how his words or actions can affect someone.
He hates that I'm not ok with him drinking or smoking and that he feels he is a grown man and can do it if he wants. He did it when we first met but told me he would quit for me and the kids. His kids have been happy about it as well. He will smoke every once in a while and will drink every few days*I'm not sure how often because he wouldn't tell me. He doesn't act out when he drinks it's just I don't want to be with someone who craves alcohol. I feel if he is thirsty water can help lol ( that's exaggerating but u get my point) I feel people use it as an escape somehow and I don't see why if someone quits smoking that they keep smoking every few days it's weird. I just dont understand.
I try to talk to him about my feelings but when I do it always makes him upset. It turns into an argument and then he just tells*me he's tired of fighting and then he won't talk to me anymore. I don't want to fight and I don't try to. I am very careful about the way I say things and feel communication is very important and I failed on not sharing my feelings in my first two marriages.
When things are good things are really good. But when they are bad they are just bad and I get a feeling from him he wants to give up which in turn has me feeling maybe we should too.
I have thought plenty of times about just taking time apart but most of the time the couple stays apart. I can't afford the bills on my own and don't want to have to move my four children and honestly I don't want to be without him.
I love him so much and I don't want to be without him because the good times overdo the bad times to me. But I know he gets tired of me being so sensitive and telling him everything I am not happy with about things going on.
What do I do? Do I just start keeping things to myself and hope the feeling subsides and just pretend everything is ok? I honestly don't know . Maybe I sound insane lol who knows.
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